If I had strong enough to get him , why should I leave him ? I could say that ' Iloveyou ' at my lips , but my heart . Who knows right ? When he start to love me , how I could game him ? I become digusting with him . When he like to attract my heart , I feel stuffy . When , here he comes to hug me , I avoid him . What are going to happen with me right noww ? At least , I'm not doing some expected sex doing , right ? I don't knoww I cannot love anyone same like I love ' him '. ( someone special please ) . I need someone who could understand me . Andd accept me , like who I am right noww . Please! My dear , I feel jealous with some of my friends . They could have their ownn ' special ' mate . Why I cannot feel like them to ? Hmmmm ;( . Please , I need someone in my life right noww =.=